Tuesday, January 14, 2014
And he is back….. OK it's the 14th of Jan and not the 1st but it's a start!
Why am I finding this blog so difficult? Probably something around being a Virgo and everything has to be so f&^%$ing perfect all the time. Maybe it’s just a simple commitment issue, or perhaps a combination of the two. But the pattern is familiar, with the net result being I have so many great ideas, which never get completed.
So my new years resolution is not to give a damn what people think, commit and just see what happens. Take a risk!
So I had a sober Christmas and New Year, which was odd to say the least, but it allowed me to take stock of how I was really feeling. New Years eve, Zoe went out and I ended up baby-sitting.
Without wanting to sound like some kind of martyr, it was out of choice, but I did what I wanted and it felt good. I spent the evening visualising how I wanted 2014 to be, acknowledged how great I felt to have given up drinking and at midnight did a meditation.
I must admit I did pat myself on the back a couple of times, but the message here is that by following my heart, and actually doing what I wanted, (rather than what other people might expect,) I had the perfect evening.
And that after all is why I am writing the blog, to capture those subtle changes and in doing so change the rhetoric that has kept me down the rabbit hole for too long. Its also an opportunity to test that old age adage of ‘commit and let providence follow! Or put a slightly more eloquent way,
Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back, always ineffectiveness, concerning all acts of initiative [and creation]. There is one elementary truth the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans; that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred.
A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one's favour all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance which no man could have dreamed would have come his way.
Whatever you can do or dream, you can begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it. Begin it now.
Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe/ Sir Edmund Hillary
Happy New Year Groovers!